i lost the only thing that made sense to me.

i don't know what to make of any of this.

i will take care of you when you grow old.

"is this all worth it, im not defenseless just scared of consequences and if i react the wrong way, would you take whats left of me, i could keep on or forfeight letting the walls that block your heart win but ive never been one to put myself in situations like this and since it came to this, been to hell and back unfortunate this is...something ill have to deal with on my own, increasing highway mileage we'll get the hell out of this town we dont care where we're going, as long as we're going, get far away from this sad excuse for a home i cant ignore the sound of a lost cause thats eating away at all of my insides."

i dont know what to do anymore, i tried to occupy my thoughts but it just brought back good memories of me and him and now i cant stop crying. why is love cruel.